.:Personal log initiated:.
Well, I have been aboard the Gibson for a little over four hours. Seeing as this is my first assignment, I really had no expectations. No, wait...that is not entirely true. I suppose it is appropriate for me to be forthcoming with myself, if only in my personal log. One expectation that I had, as I was made aware of my having been assigned to the Gibson, was that the days of "hurry up and wait" had come to their joyful and long-awaited demise. I was wrong.
I often find myself wondering if my frustration is unjustified, yet at the same time, I am convinced that inefficiency is to blame. Or is it? Is my frustration a product of childhood-based perceptions? Should I instead--
:silence:
Actually, disregard. These frustrations occupy enough of my time and energy. They need not crowd my personal logs as well. I would be much better off putting forth the effort to take things as they come.
I miss Nioa. I wanted her to come with me. She wanted to come with me. I am convinced that, had I asked, she would have followed me to the outermost reaches of space. That would have been difficult for her, however, and I imagine many of my shipmates would have struggled to understand the bond between a Breen and his offspring. Considering the circumstances, this is best for her, and I will do what I need to do to learn to cope.
My quarters are comfortable. It seems that my superiors were unsure of how to address my being the only Breen aboard, so I was not assigned a roommate. I was wondering how this would be addressed, and I am certainly not disappointed with the solution. The only drawback to having my own room, if it truly is a drawback, is that living with a roommate would have forced me to interact with a shipmate on a regular basis outside of official duties. I would not object to changing the presumably negative attitude that many have concerning Breen, although that is not my primary concern. I am here to serve Starfleet according to the principles of the Federation. Had my beliefs rather been aligned with the Breen Confederacy, then I would likely be serving the Dominion.
I suppose I should conclude for now. With everything that is happening, it seems wasteful to spend my time sleeping, but I was advised that brass would not be contacting me until morning.
.:Personal log concluded:.